Let me just start by saying that I did not expect to be writing this post this day, month, or even this year. But here we are.
So, you may or may not know that I have an office job that I’ve been at for almost two years now. Prior to working there I swore to myself that I would never work in an office. That’s not who I am and it’s not something that I would enjoy, I believed.
Rewind to 2015. I was working a retail ish job that was MISERABLE. A very terrible environment with equally as terrible pay. Not an office job, but definitely not a job that I wanted to be at. The job search began. Living in a small town, my options were extremely limited and I just so happened to come across an office job that I was energetically drawn towards. I went with it and before I knew it I was a person with a desk job. Whoa.
Fast forward to last week. September 6, 2017. I walked into my job, sat down, and put in my notice. Today was my last day there and yes, I have “all of the feels” right now.
I took my now previous job with no idea what to expect and it wasn’t all terrible. In fact, most of it was pretty good. Overall, I enjoyed it but it really wasn’t for me and that began to present itself to me very clearly over the past few months.
I could go over all of the ways in which this job no longer served me but I don’t see that as a productive way to spend my energy to write it or your time to read it. I’ll just sum it up and say that I knew that it wasn’t where I was supposed to be. But nevertheless, I kept showing up as we often do. That’s a whole other blog post topic though.
After a difficult day at work last week I went home fueled with a desire to get the f out of there in any way that I could. I did some serious budgeting and number crunching. When I get out the calculator then you know it’s serious because math is not my jam. I’d rather never eat ice cream again if that meant that I could live a life free of math. Anyways, I budgeted the afternoon away and came out on the other side knowing that I was quitting the next day.
And that’s what I did. Against everyone in my life telling me that it wasn’t a good idea; that I needed some sense of security, that I should have another job lined up before I quit, the list of reasons to not do it go on and on. Which I do appreciate in some weird way because I know that it means that those people care. But regardless, I do what I want and once my mind is made up then that’s what’s happening. The end.
So I quit.
And now here I am.
What’s my plan?
This is my plan. Create N Plate is my plan. Everything always comes back here and this is what I’m meant to do so I’m doing it.
I’m putting everything I have into this brand for the rest of the year. I’m giving it everything I have and it’s going to be financially stable enough to live comfortably off of it by the beginning of 2018. *manifesting*
I sit here with a smile on my face even though I have no idea what the heck the next few months have in store for me. Just like I had no idea that I’d be quitting my job at the beginning of this month. You never really know. And there’s something beautiful in that. The uncertainty, the unexpected. Taking big risks and going against what everyone else thinks to go after something you truly believe in.
It’s something special; and terrifying, and exhilarating, and stressful.
A lot of the most impactful things in my life have come from the biggest and riskiest decisions. The things that spark fear and discomfort not only in me, but also in the people around me. That is where the good stuff is. The growth and change. Those things don’t come from a place of comfort, which I think is why I’m so drawn towards making myself uncomfortable by making the “dangerous” decisions. I’m out here just trying to grow and become a better version of myself each day not only for myself, but also so that I can better connect with and help others.
When I do the deep work of figuring out what I want and what my purpose is that’s when I’m able to make the risky decisions because I know that it’s what will bring me to my Truth. There’s a lot of trust that goes into it all. A deeply rooted trust that I’ve been able to cultivate thanks to my yoga practice. A trust that you learn to settle into even where you have no freakin’ idea where you’re going, what you’re doing, or how you’re going to do it.
You just be. It sounds so easy and in a way it is.
I quit my office job to work on my website and teach yoga full time. Yes, I know how that sounds. But more importantly, I also know how it feels.
To me it feels right; it feels like I’m doing exactly what I should be doing.
So that’s exactly what I’m going to do.